I think drama is not my thing anymore. Gradually, the feeling just fades away. I'm just so tired of doing what people want me to do. And the process of memorizing the script is terrible. I just feel like I lost it. Lost the energy to be someone that I'm not. Well maybe I'm not in the good mood now cause of the National Day Celebration in school. I had to memorize a script that was written 3 weeks before the actual day and they expect us to do a good job at it, with insufficient rehearsals. Well maybe I'm not a good actor since I can't do it.

But what is syafiq without drama? That's the question.

Shall get rid of this feeling soon. I make sure I will make a comeback.

Feeling so sick is super annoying. Cough hit me a few days ago. Fortunately, it's gone now. Unfortunately, cough's bestfriend decided to hit me. Yes, the flu bug hit me. Couldn't concerntrate today at all. I hope I will not fall sick due to fever.

Super shag the whole entire day. In fact, I got schedules like on every day of the week. But she made my day. She came and I was like smilling all the way today. Got my mood back. ^^ Tomorrow going out with her~~ Erghh, it feels like the first episode of WGM. Haha!

I told her I'm gonna sleep, but I can't. I can't text her cause I'll be disturbing her sleep. So, I just let it be.

Gonna rot and stare at the laptop.

SyafiqSallehTan signing off~~

Okay, I bet the package would be able to figure it out what I meant by that cheeky laugh. Basically, I'm looking forward to everyday now. I never felt like this before. Maybe I did but it was an on and off kinda thing. I hope everything works out well.

Currently in the train to go to orchard with mum. It's been so long since I hang out with mum, like one on one. The funny thing about mum is that her make up today is so hilariously cute. Her cheeks matches her lip. Her lips are painted fuschia pink by the way. Hahah. Cute mum. ^^

School gonna start soon, and I'm looking forward for it cause it's darn boring to sit at home and do nothing. Such a bore. No mood to read books and use the Internet.

Kay before my battery run dead, I better finish this entry.

SyafiqSallehTan singning out~~~

사 랑 해 요~ ^^

I should remember 110331. This is the date that I finally became a calefare, with lines. Titisan Temasek had their annual production just now. It is titled 'Oh Saffiyah'.  A cliche love story with bollywood as it's theme. To me, It's not cliche at all cause I like cliche stories. Easier to understand. ^^

I played the doctor in the hospital, informing Saffiyah that her husband is dying soon. Fortunately, my lines are in english. Was kinda scared that I might not be able to potray the character well. But I dont give a damn about it. I've been through worse so mini roles shouldn't be that tough. Unfortunately, I messed up my lines. Kinda like jumbled up the lines but it still made sense. So phew~

Sadly no talent scout just now -.-

Well, so most of the productions are done. I don't know about CCA recruitment drive. I hope we're not performing cause its an embarassment. Nobody would watch and you had to stand there acting like a complete idiot.

Hana asked me what character I wanna play for my last production in TP. Let me list out all the characters I've played before:

1. Japanese Soldier (Calefare- Not counted), TP National Day Celebration, 2009
2. Secondary school student (Calefare), TP National Day Celebration, 2009
3. Detective (Lead), Tales of the Dark, 2009
4. Metrosexual Guy (Supporting Actor), CCA Recruitment Drive, 2010
5. Traditional Husband (Supporting Actor), Magus Luna V: Unheard Voices, 2010
6. Runaway Groom (Lead), Magus Luna V: Unheard Voices, 2010
7. Nerdy/Geeky Guy (Lead), Dreams III: Through the Seasons, 2011
8. Doctor (Calefare), Oh Saffiyah, 2011

 

So that's all the character I played before. So, now I wanna potray the villian. Kinda like innocent on the outside but with evil motives. Or maybe a hero or something. ^^

Mr Sonny asked me about my history. He wants to know how long I was in Theatre. And he wanna know whether I dance? LOL! If I were to say yes, he'll make me a broadway star. HAHA, nah just kidding.

Kay, I gotta sleep. NIGHTS~

SyafiqSallehTan signing off~~~

ps: CONGRATS NIkki and Atifah for being the new leaders for Dramatec. ^^

Photoshoot: Pray For Japan

Like seriously, I haven't donate a single cent to Japan and I'm feeling effing guilty about it. Hearing and watching the news on Japan saddened me. Like what did they do to deserve this. And I got a text message from Athifah and sis regarding Judgement day. It says there will be three major earthquakes before the day of judgement. One in the east, one in the west and the other in Arabia. 2 already happened; Haiti (East) and Japan (West). This is according to Islam and it really freaks me out. Like there's no point in investing expensive technologies, clothes, shoes, pants, bags and etc when later in life, you will leave everything on earth. Only your soul will be ask for judgement.

Okay enough of the thing above. Really scary~~

So, today went out with Nadilah cause she was searching for job. I'M PRAYING HARD FOR HER!!! We went all over town to search for job and window shop. :D Gonna buy a new outfit for first day of school. Insyaallah~

Met hyung after that. Went to buy dumbbells. YAY, like finally can work out at home without going to the gym. The whole weight thing cost us about 99 bucks. So it kinda worth it. ^^

Okay, gonna slack now.

SyafiqSallehTan signing off~~~

Muahaha. I just have to post that pic above. Poly life is great when you have those people above. Oh wait, need to add another one more pic. The most important picture ever.

 

Ahhhh, thats better~~

Why am I still awake? Why am I not sleeping? Why am I updating my blog at this hour? WAE?!

Been rotting at home and not do anything but dance, sing, watch tv, watch korean drama, look myself in the mirror and eat. That's basically my life right now. I bet the rest of my friends are all working and have daily events on their schedule. Sigh, wish I had something to do. Oh wait, I do have a schedule tomorrow, I mean later. I'm meeting Nadilah. :D :D yeah FINALLY get to get out of the house and dress up?

DARN! Now I have to think of what to wear tomorrow, I mean later.

bye night suckers.

SyafiqSallehTan signing off~~

 

HYUNG!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!

I shouldn't mention it here but just congratulations! Well, I've never been this proud of my hyung in my 19  20 years of my life with him. I'm always the one that did better than him, be it in studies, singing, fashion, looks.. HAHA was just kidding. Just the studies part. BUT NOW, he really surprises me cause I know I wouldn't have pass it the first try but he did. HE DID IT!!!!

And mum and dad is super proud of him. Especially dad.

Mum and dad, as well as kaklong and ira have seen me shine through the years but I think it's time for him to shine. But, not too worry, I will shine the brightest again. And take note, its not that I'm jealous or anything, pfft.

ahhh~~~ In the celebrative mood now.

Gonna pop a champange?

SyafiqSallehTan signing off~

Hello readers, if there's any. This blog has been left for so long cause of school. Since I'm currently on semester break, might as well write on something right? Haha. Results was released on the 18th and hell yeah I managed to maintain my 3.0 GPA which was kinda hard to achieve. I can't believe it that I could actually got that kinda grades. Oh well, I got it any way.

The reason why I thought I wouldn't get that kinda grades cause of the pressure that Miss Siti was giving me. She's made me come all the way to school to ask me this:

" What happen to your grades?"

Lame I know. Like seriously, can't i just do my own thing. I know what's best for me. So with my current grades, I don't think she will be calling me anytime soon. Thank god.

And I realise something about myself lately. I've been slacking and my standards have dropped to a level which is comparable to a standard that is high for others. Maybe I'm thinking too much.

Dreams III finally came to an end. Playing Chip Dickey was torturous. That character is too OTT (Over The Top). I hate it. But I eventually embrace that character and I think I did a pretty good job at it. and Mr S (who everyone hates in drama cause he thinks too highly of himself and he is just not too careful with his comments and.. I shouldn't brag about him here), actually complimented me after the show. I was walking beside him and he came up to me and said:

"Hey I need to talk to you. You're very good. Your body language is good and you are a great physical actor. Among everyone on stage, you're the one that is good physically."

I was practically over the moon. Hehe.

Someday I will make it big in theatre. Just wait and see.

Oh, Jiansheng came to watch and he was the one that shouted my name when the spotlight was on me and was waiting for the song to start.

SyafiqTAN signing off~~~

You: Yeah sure. *smiles slightly even though quite reluctant
Y: Great! I will wait for you to shower and get ready. I’ll be outside, in the living room.
You: Okay.

You showered and got ready. You don’t bother to dress up because it’s just a walk at the park near your house.

Both of you walk side by side not knowing that you guys were quite close to each other. The back of your palms kept brushing against his hands and they were rough. It might be the workout. Both of you were quite shy to start the conversation.

Y: So, beautiful day huh?
You: Yeah, beautiful Saturday morning (sarcastically after flashes of yesterday’s painful moments came crashing through your mind)
Y: Wow, sarcasm much?
You: You actually got the sarcasm?
Y: Yeah, what’s on your mind?
You: Nah, don’t want to talk about it.
Y: Well you could share it with me?
You: I don’t share my problems with someone I’m not close to.
Y: Well, will I ever get to be close to you in the future?
Y: er...

You were just about to answer his question when your phone rang. When you checked it, it is Jaejoong. Part of you wanted to answer it but the other half wants to reject it. In the end you rejected his call. Jaejoong really messes with the wrong girl.

You: You were saying?
Y: Nah, its okay your answer doesn’t matter anyway. *looks sad
You: Oh, well.. well maybe. If you wanna be close to me, I have to warn you, I’m very complicated.
Y: Haha! (suddenly lightened up when you said that) let me tell you a secret: (whispering) I work well with complicated person.
You: Haha, we’ll see. *finally smiling without forcing yourself.

“Yunho is a really nice guy” you thought to yourself. Suddenly, your phone rang again. It was Jaejoong yet another time. All you could think of was the horrible mistake he did yesterday evening. You decided to keep rejecting his call until he learns his lesson.

You: Can I ask you something?
Y: You can ask me anything. :D
You: Well, what was your first impression of me?
Y: Well, you really gave a bad first impression. But I guess fate wants me to not judge people base on first impression so I think that is why you fainted in front of me so that I could get to know you more.
You: Oh okay. Anything else?
Y: Well, you’re stubborn. You want to get things done your way without realising there’s other ways much better than yours.
You: What does that mean you sucker.
Y: Haha! You’re stubborn in a cute way. Hehe
You: thanks but I don’t think that’s a compliment. *roll eyes.
Y: Aww don’t be mad. * smiles really really widely.
You: I’m not mad but.. OUCH!!! MY EYES!!

Something got into your eyes and the pain is unbearable. You start rubbing your eyes profusely.

Y: hey hey hey, don’t rub, let me take a look at it.
You: It’s painful!!

You couldn’t see properly but he took your hands away and slowly put his gentle fingers onto your eye area. He did something real quick and without you realising, the pain was gone.

Y: Your eyelash went inside your eye.
You: Omg, serious? Its super painful.
Y: So do I get anything for saving your life mel?
You: Nah, nothing but a pat of your head. Hahaa

You started patting his head real hard instead and both of you were enjoying yourself, fooling around and laughing until you got another text message from Jaejoong.

Jj: I know that you’re mad at me for not meeting you, but I have reasons for it. I shall meet you under your block in 5 minutes and I will explain everything. Jj.

You were shocked! You didn’t know what to do cause yunho is there and you dont want to hurt his feelings by asking him to head home.

You: Oh my god. Er yunho, i need to meet someone and I think you should head back home.
Y: What? Why? Not until I get something in return for saving you? Haha
You: yunho, this is serious. You need to go.
Y: nope, I’m just gonna stand here and wait.
You: Kay fine! What do you want?
Y: Your phone number? *smiles charmingly
You: kay fine and you seriously need to go once I give you my number.
Y: yes ma’m. *replied obediently

Both of you switch number. Suddenly a familiar manly voice made your heart skip a bit.

Jj: Mel, we need to talk. *angrily

You swear his voice seriously brought shivers down your spine.
Yunho was very curious about him and checked him out from top to bottom. Jaejoong was wearing black tank top and a black leather pants with an aviator. You couldn’t deny that he was very handsome and hot at the same time.

Y: oh hi, I’m Yunho. (Hand out his hand to shake jaejoong’s hand)

Jaejoong ignored him and pulled you really hard by your left hand and started walking really fast. He was still holding your hands while walking until you reach under your block.

Jj: So, you were mad at me and you randomly go out with another guy?!
You: You know what, We’re not even together. why should you care?!
Jj: Why should I care? Mel, I know it was my mistake but I got reasons.
You: Well maybe you should at least called me way ahead of time. Not when I was already in the bus!!! And to top it all off, I had a fever and you weren’t there for me!
Jj: huh what? You had a fever? When?
You: You know what, I had enough. I’m going back home!
Jj: NO! Not until we solve this! Mel, can you at least make me explain?

You just gave that glare and looked away.

Jj: I’m sorry if I stood you up yesterday. I truly apologize but the reason why I left is because.. is because I went to booked tickets for a dinner at the Singapore flyer. I want to make it official with you cause I realise I love you more and more every single minute of the day. I want us to be a couple and when you rejected my call, it hurts to know that someone I truly admire and care about could do this to me.

He slowly come up from behind you and made you turn to face him.

His hands interlock to yours.

Jj: I didn’t know you were sick. You could have just told me. I promise to not break any promises ever again.

Slowly he wrap his arms around you. You cant help but to fall in love with him again, having that same butterfly feelings in your stomach. You actually teared up and just cry on his chest.

Both of your eyes interlock with each other. He slowly wipe away your tears with his fingers.

You: I’m sor...
Jj: dont say a word. Come, lets take a sit.

Both of you sat down on the nearest bench and he was having his arms around you while you rest on his shoulder. You didn’t realise of the time but you were glad that you’re back in his arms where you felt secure again. Everybody made mistake and you hope that you would be able to forgive every mistake he’ll make in the future. Suddenly..

Jj: hey mel.
You: yeah (you looked up)
Jj: I love you

And he straight away went for your lips gently and gave you the kiss that you have been waiting for. It was the perfect kiss ever and indeed, it was the best Saturday morning, no sarcasm here. :D

Friday morning.
It’s been a week since you last saw him and you missed him real bad. After that date and that kiss, you really are sure that you finally found someone ideal because he’s handsome, he’s charming and the list just goes on and on. Even though the kiss was on the cheek, it was still the most perfect ‘kiss-on-the-cheek’ kiss.

(phone vibrates)

You went to look at your phone and a wide smile spread across your face. It was a text from Jaejoong.

Jj: hey baby <3

“Wow that’s fast, we’re not even together yet and he calls me a baby? Oh well, I still like it. Hehe” you thought to yourself.

You: hey~~~

After a few minutes, your phone suddenly rang. He called. Your smile could easily be listed in the Guiness Book of Records for the widest smile in the world!

You: hello~
Jj: I cant wait any longer for your text so I called cause… I’m missing you already.
You: Awww, I miss you too. Hehe
Jj: Haha, I didn’t see you at school today.
You: Huh?
Jj: I was waiting for you at the locker area outside the kitchen and you weren’t there.
You: You were actually waiting for me? Aww you’re so sweet.
Jj: Haha not as sweet as you…
You: *blushing* Err, sorry I didn’t tell you earlier that theres no kitchen today. But I got swimming later. Sigh~
Jj: Haha, why do you always have to sigh whenever there’s swimming?
You: Cause, it’ll make me very feverish and lerthagic.
Jj: You want me to accompany you at swimming later?
You: I don’t mind~~~ hehe
Jj: Haha, I got class till 6 so most probably I cant pick you up.
You: Nah its okay (no you’re not okay, haha)
Jj: Okay, than I shall meet you at the bus stop than.
You: Yeah okay~
Jj: Okay, see you.
You: See you.
Jj: bye
You: bye.

“Awww he’s too sweet!!!” you thought to yourself. You were jumping around the house, smiling.

(Phone vibrates: text message)

Jj: Oh forgot to tell you something. Saranghae~ cant wait to see you :D

AHHHH!!! OMG HE’S SO AMAZING!!!!

You: Hehehe. Can’t wait to see you too~

Friday afternoon around 5
Time sure flies so slow when you are about to meet the most perfect person ever. You were really feeling lethargic and feverish. But you knew that swimming usually gives this feeling every single time. You got ready and went out of the house.

Inside the bus, you were really feeling feverish. And it didn’t help with the cold temperature inside the bus. You were about to reach school when your phone suddenly vibrates. It was a text from him.

Jj: Hey, I’m really sorry. I forgot that I have to run some errands after school and I wont be staying with you for swimming. I’m truly sorry. Will make it up to you one day.

After reading the text, you swear you could actually cry on the spot. A tiny drop of tear went down your cheeks. You’re not sure why you are tearing up. Maybe because it was the feverish feeling? Or maybe it was him?
As you alighted the bus at the school bus stop, you were hoping that he was there waiting for you with his flawless charming face and that he was only joking. Instead, there was no one there.

“Forget it” you told yourself.

As you reach the swimming pool, everybody was joking around with you and you seriously had no time for any jokes. You stared at them and they immediately got the message telepathically. Every single thing can piss you off right now and there.

Coach: okay everybody listen up, we got a new member on the team. He is a student exchange from South Korea.

After hearing South Korea, you immediately look up, thinking it was Jaejoong who could have lied to you and join the swimming team to surprise you. Instead…

Coach: let’s give a warm welcome Jung Yunho!

Everybody clapped. All you could do was to stare at him and look down again. The fever is seriously getting very serious. All you want to do was to go home and rest and forget about him not being there at the bus stop after he initiated the meeting.

Despite the fever, you still swam. After swimming, you quickly went to get a sit. You were feeling really really sick. You were trying to catch your breath and closed your eyes. Suddenly someone came to talk to you.

“Thanks for not bothering to welcome me cheerfully. Haha.” He said. You looked up and it was the new guy, Yunho.

You: I’m sorry, I’m really not in the mood to talk to anyone right now. So please.
Y: Are you sick? *he quickly went over to touch your forehead.
You: Tsk, it’s none of your business.
Y: You are sick! Why did you swim when you know that you’re sick?
You: *panting really hard* For the last time, it’s none of your… of your busi….

Suddenly everything went dark and all you could see was total darkness. You fainted.

Everybody was shocked and got scared.

Y: Does anybody know where her house is?

Everybody shook their heads.

Yunho was feeling very agitated. He than picked you up, cover you with a towel and brought you to his car.

When you finally opened your eyes, you were in his car.

You: Where am I?
Y: Oh you’re finally awake. Come, here’s some panadol.
You: Wait, who are you and why am I doing in your car?
Y: I’m the guy that you didn’t welcome properly and you fainted. Haha.
You: I fainted? What time is it?
Y: 9. Why?
You: Oh shit! I need to go home.

You were about to go out of his car when he suddenly grab your wrist.

Y: No you’re sick! I’ll send you home. You’re not strong enough to go home by yourself. You’re too weak.
You: No I’m fine! Let go!
Y: Kay fine! If anything happen along the way, don’t blame me.
You: sigh, fine!
Y: here, take the medicine. Where’s your house?
You than directed him to your house.

About 20 minutes later, you finally arrive. He than guide you to your house while holding your hands to make sure you won’t fall or faint again.
You were quite surprise that he actually sent you straight to your doorstep. He is actually the first guy that sends you home till the doorstep. You were actually touched but the fever was too strong for you to feel anything.

Y: Rest well. Goodnight~
You: hmmm.

You than showered and went to sleep.

Saturday morning
Your mum wake you up suddenly.

Mum: How’s the fever?
You: I think I’m feeling much better now
Mum: well, someone is here and he would like to see you.
You: who?

You were surprise that it was yunho standing at the edge of your bed.

“OMG!” you thought to yourself. You were looking very unglamorous and some stranger was in your room! Your mum left the room.

You: Oh its you. *trying to act calm while obviously you’re not

You couldn’t remember a single thing from yesterday. Only bits and pieces.

Y: I have a name you know. Haha *smiling brightly on a Saturday morning

He was quite different from Jaejoong. He has his own charm.

You: Yunho, I guess that’s your name? *than you finally realize you gave a very bad impression on him yesterday.
I’m sorry that I didn’t really welcome you to the team yesterday evening. So, welcome to the team! *you smiled widely

Y: HAHA! Thanks.

That’s the most sweetest smile you ever seen. His personality is totally different from Jaejoong. He is more carefree and outgoing while Jaejoong is more serious but charming.

Y: So, you wanna get dress and take a walk?
You: Er..